Well, for those of you who read my blog, and for those others who stumble blindly to my posts by accident when looking for Cat Man- the man who tattooed his face to look like a cat, you can see I have been absent from my posts. The reason: I have a deadline looming and I have been on freak out mode for the past week.
My book, A Broken Fate, the second novel in The Beautiful Fate Series is due to release on August 26th. I have been ready for this release since March, or so I thought. The book was edited and complete and has been sitting as a dusty file on my laptop for months now. I read the story a few times over the summer and felt confident and ready. Now, with a week before the due date, like a woman ready to give birth, I went in to nesting mode. I have read and re-read changed and then changed back tiny paragraphs, sentences and even words. I contemplated calling the release off and giving myself a few extra months to work things through. I knew in doing this that I would make my fans seriously unhappy and with the cliffhanger I left them with on book one, I might even receive death threats-- well ok, maybe just a nasty email or two. But I couldn’t smile when I finished the book, something was missing and I knew that I would not, could not release this story without a giddy, stupid smile on my face.
Even with a week before the release and a feeling of doom, I STILL put off the story. I cleaned rooms that did not need to be cleaned. I took my dog to the groomer, scrubbed the tile grout in my bathroom, painted a ceiling, and became a series addict to Candy Crush. DAMN YOU LEVEL 29!
With anxiety looming, an eye that won’t stop twitching and sweaty palms, I think I can say it is ready. I finished the story last night and when I closed my lap top, that stupid smile I love so much was plastered right there on my giddy face. Ava and Ari are ready to tell the second part of their story.
Now, as I wait to be admitted into a Candy Crush rehab center, I ask myself why did I wait for one tiny, measly week to fine-tune this rather important (to me) story?
Is procrastination the key? I would like to say not, but in this case, perhaps, yes. I have never, ever in my life procrastinated. A lie? Ok maybe. But, I do not take to procrastination as a habit. I do believe that it gave me the extra oomph I needed, a push if you will, to really get my butt in gear and get things done. I am so happy and relieved to be able to move forward with The Beautiful Fate Series. I can say I am proud of my work. I do this thing, writing, for me after all. I created Ava and Ari because I wanted to sit down and read the book. In the beginning, I never intended to let someone else read this story. SO here you go world, on August 26th I will stand before you, allowing you to see what is in my mind. Don’t judge me too harshly, I am only human.